Sunday, January 11, 2009

Fighting the Blues

2009 hasn't been such a happy new year for me yet. I've been in a funk that I'm trying so hard to get out of, but it isn't easy. I felt the clouds rolling in about mid-December, and it just got worse as we went through the Christmas season.

I've been trying to put my finger on the cause so I can find a cure, but everything affects each other so much, it's hard to know what to blame- hormones, lack of sleep, lack of sunshine, lack of exercise, chemistry, etc.

While I was talking to my friend on the phone, she said something that I thought was great advice. She said, "Just remember to think about what is true and real."

When she said that, it just hit me how much I've been looking at life through a lens of how I PERCEIVE it lately, not as it ACTUALLY is. Weariness and sleep deprivation have a way of clouding things, making hurdles seem like permanent problems.

So right now, I'm taking some time so think about what is really real about this little trial I'm going through- not what my hormones tell me is true, or what my circumstances feel like, but what is really TRUE.

I'm also trying to eat better, and as I'm looking at this upcoming week, I'm going to schedule some sun time (or at least be outside even if the sun doesn't come out) and some exercise time and see how that all helps.

I've also just been going through a time of resisting prayer. I don't know why. Prayer time is so important to me. I need it so much and always feel so good after spending time with God, so why am I resisting something that I love so much? Making that a priority is another goal for this week, too.

Here's to a better week! : ) I'm sure thankful Spring is on its way. : )


Alyce said...

I hope you have a better week and remember all your blessings!

Becky Avella said...

Thanks, Alyce. I am SO thankful for all my blessings. : ) Thanks for the reminder.

nomore said...

I like your title "Fighting the Blues"

I appluade you for that and for not giving in, but rather being intentional about getting out, exercize, working back into prayer, etc... (I go thru that prayer thing too sometimes) Well actually, I go thru the whole 'funk' thing at times as well.

Sorry that it's ruff for you at the moment, but thank you for the transparancy you shared this evening...I'm encouraged by your intentionality~~~ I'm prone to just stay in bed when in the 'funk' mode- and that is NOT GOOD!

Saying a prayer for you tonight as you trust & cling to HIM as He pulls you thru :O)

Dale said...

Dearest Becky,

Even though I don't e-mail or post as often; I still think of you and check your blog routinely. I am praying for God to lift your spirits despite the sleep deprivation, hormones, etc. I think a trip to go and visit Missy or Brandi (even though I've never personally met either one:)) might be beneficial too!
Much love,

Mrs. MK said...

Thanks for your honesty. I have been fighting for so long.....I wonder if I will ever be normal again. But you're right, spring is just around the corner!!

michele said...

Oh it is so hard when you feel down!! The only advice I can give is get into the WORD, pray, ask someone to pray FOR YOU and do something special for someone who does not expect it.... the funk may diminish soon!

Anonymous said...

You have a very wise friend. I'll keep praying for you too. Love, Mom

Jill Beran said...

Becky, I was reading your recent thankful post and clicked on this one! Since I'm fighting the blues as well, it caught my eye. Thanks for the reminder to focus on what is true!! Sometimes the lies seem so loud! Blessings to you, Jill