2009 hasn't been such a happy new year for me yet. I've been in a funk that I'm trying so hard to get out of, but it isn't easy. I felt the clouds rolling in about mid-December, and it just got worse as we went through the Christmas season.
I've been trying to put my finger on the cause so I can find a cure, but everything affects each other so much, it's hard to know what to blame- hormones, lack of sleep, lack of sunshine, lack of exercise, chemistry, etc.
While I was talking to my friend on the phone, she said something that I thought was great advice. She said, "Just remember to think about what is true and real."
When she said that, it just hit me how much I've been looking at life through a lens of how I PERCEIVE it lately, not as it ACTUALLY is. Weariness and sleep deprivation have a way of clouding things, making hurdles seem like permanent problems.
So right now, I'm taking some time so think about what is really real about this little trial I'm going through- not what my hormones tell me is true, or what my circumstances feel like, but what is really TRUE.
I'm also trying to eat better, and as I'm looking at this upcoming week, I'm going to schedule some sun time (or at least be outside even if the sun doesn't come out) and some exercise time and see how that all helps.
I've also just been going through a time of resisting prayer. I don't know why. Prayer time is so important to me. I need it so much and always feel so good after spending time with God, so why am I resisting something that I love so much? Making that a priority is another goal for this week, too.
Here's to a better week! : ) I'm sure thankful Spring is on its way. : )