A Season of Preparation:
Writing fiction has been a lifelong dream, but I am not in a season of my life where I can or should devote the time necessary for full time, professional writing. Out of necessity, it has to remain a hobby.
Just for now.
I hope later that will change, and I will have more time to pursue it like I want to do, and find out if I even have enough talent to write publishable stories.
In the meantime I see this as a season of preparation. I'm studying the craft of writing, and I write whenever I can, loving every minute of it.
Who am I?
One of the things I'm trying to do is discover my voice, my audience, and my genre. I've heard you should write what you love to read, but I love such a wide variety of books, and I have three manuscripts started that couldn't be more different. One is Contemporary Christian Fiction, one is a verse novel, and one is a fairy tale. Which one do I commit to finishing?
Who am I as a writer? Shannon Hale, one of my favorite authors, said, "I spent eighteen years writing unpublishable stuff, and I now realize it was all in pursuit of my voice."
That's where I am at. Do I want to write
Contemporary Christian Fiction like my favorites Francine Rivers and Joel Rosenberg? Do I want to write
verse novels like Karen Hesse? Do I want to write
fairy tales like Gail Carson Levine and Shannon Hale? Do I write for adults or for young adults and middle grade readers? I'm not sure yet. And when I settle in to the genre and audience that fits, what does Becky Avella the storyteller sound like?
I don't know yet, but I'm praying about it, and I believe I can't know unless I just keep writing. That's where I'll find myself.
Not in the thinking about it, but in the actual act of writing. Just thinking about writing or talking about writing won't make me a writer. I need to write. Even if the progress is slow.
My Goals:
I'm so thankful for the writing community. I've been given some wonderful advice like this from my new friend
Michelle Massaro at Adventures in Writing:
The next time you decide to pick up your pen, I'd encourage you to put it to one of your half-finished books instead of starting yet another from scratch.
Or this from author,
Jody Hedlund:
With 3 uncompleted manuscripts, I'm also inclined to think you might need to push yourself to finish one of them, even if it's just as simple as giving yourself the goal of 300 words a day. (Or giving yourself the goal of finishing one during the summer.)
So those are my goals for now-
1. I need to know what it feels like to actually cross the finish line instead of starting over.
2. I've settle on one of my manuscripts to finish and have dedicated this summer as the summer of a completed rough draft.
3. I know I'll have to turn off my self-editor and realize the first draft won't be perfect (
or even good) and I'll need to turn off the the but
"who am I really" questions and just write to "The End". That voice will be discovered as I continue to finish manuscripts and in the revisions.
I'm so excited!