Monday, February 7, 2011

But Why?



When it comes to my weight struggle and food issues, I've asked, "why?" a lot.

I've often thought of the whole thing as a big, unfair curse.

I can't count the multitude of prayers I've lifted concerning these issues. Prayers to be beautiful, prayers to be a certain number on the scale, prayers for help on this diet or that diet, and even prayers that God would spare my daughters from inheriting my issues with food and weight so they will avoid the same heartache.  

One of the lessons I've been learning lately is that this whole thing is anything BUT a curse. 

Looking back over the course of my lifetime, I cannot think of a single issue that has sent me more consistently to God than this one.

 
In the past God has used this struggle to: 
  • Draw me closer to Him
  • Humble me
  • Get me on my knees
  • Reveal my need for Him
  • Teach me of His (and others) love for me just as I am
  • Inspire me to more maturity
  • Show me how unsatisfying anything will be that I crave more than Him

 And now God is continuing to use this struggle to :  
  • Deepen my dependence on Him
  • Refine and mature me
  • Lead me to repentance
  • Prompt me to use the resources that are mine in Him
  • Teach me I am stronger than I think I am because He is great in my weakness
  • Alllow me to know Him more (something I long for)
  • Demonstrate that He is enough and all I need
  • Show me where my true worth lies
  • Confirm His great and undeserved love for me
  • And to lead me to victory instead of defeat

I'm embracing the journey because this journey and all these things He's doing through it are

 
GOOD!

 
I'm embracing this journey and realizing it does not have a beginning nor an end. It is something I will keep working on my whole life, but the results will be worth it.

 
But, what if this battle with food isn't the curse we've always thought it to be? What if it's actually the very thing, if brought under control, that can lead us to a better understanding of God? What if we could actually get to the place where we thanked God for letting us face this battle because of the rich treasure we discovered on the battlefield?

- Lysa TerKeurst, Made to Crave, Chapter 10

 
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Only two more webcasts left! Tonight I'm looking forward to seeing Mandisa talking with Lysa. Here's the link to the webcast which will air at 8 PM (EST). Don't forget to adjust for your timezone. If you miss it, it will air again tomorrow at several times throughout the day on the Made to Crave website.

 
See you there!

 
Love,  

1 comment:

The Toll House Cookie said...

Hi Becky....I'm on a similar journey. I just found your blog after Daiquiri referred us to you. You've gained a new follower today! ;-)